Monday, November 30, 2009

Trinity Killer!!!

Why is NO ONE watching this season of Dexter?!?!?!?
I have been DYING to talk to someone about it!!!
(someone else, besides my brother)
John Lithgow is a GENIUS!!!
Could they have chosen a better serial killer?!?
Absolutely NOT!!!
He is SOOO good at acting effing CRAZY!!!
I love him!

This season is so good!!!!
(and then come talk to me about it!)

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Evolution of Dance

This is brilliant. Click it.
Dancing makes me happy.

Forgive and Forget

To 'forgive and forget' is a concept that has been around for centuries. Lately, I find myself wondering about this concept, and how healthy it really is. I know that it seems like the best policy, but isn't it also true that history repeats itself? If someone wrongs you, is it really best to forget about it and move on? But then what if it happens again, and maybe even again? I think there is a huge line where you no longer should be forgiving OR especially forgetting when a person has wronged you more than once.
I know I am a very big advocate of this policy. I forgive and forget, far to easily. You hurt me, I'm pissed... you apologize, I let it go. I have done this too many times, for too many undeserving people. I have allowed myself to be hurt reptitively, simply for giving the wrong people the un-deserving benefit of the doubt.
The problem: thinking people will change. Thinking that they "won't do it again" or that "they've learned their lesson."
The Truth: people don't change.

Yes, people can grow, learn new things, have new idea's, and POSSIBLY change a little of themselves... but in the long run, I feel like the deep seeded problems,-- the one's dating back to childhood-- those are with us forever. Even when seeking professional help, I know a person can learn about their problems, acknowledge their existance, confront them even... but can you actually get rid of them? Become a different person? Mind over matter?

Even if it is a possibility that someone has wronged you and you decide to forgive them, is it really safe to forget? Wouldn't it be more likely for these problems to repeat themselves if we push the incident out of our heads? And can we ever really forget these things??
As said in Sex and the City, "Can you really forgive, if you can't really forget?"

Some people carry burdens with them throughout their whole lives. My Mom for example, hardly ever lets go of anything. She claims she has a "suitcase" in which she carries around incidents that still tick her off to this day. Example: she is still mad at a girl who threw sand in my face in elementary school! Me on the other hand? I forgave the girl for it, and moved on... but I certainly haven't forgotten it.

I really don't know where I am going with this... it's just something I have been thinking about lately. Also ties in with the whole concept of "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind." While it may seem like a good idea to block out memories, good or bad, about a person... I don't think it really is. The healthy solution is to become at peace with these things, and learn not to dwell on anything for too long. Only keep things that are healthy in your life, and if you are consistently being disappointed by a person or situation, it's time to move on from it. (I wanna try getting my chakra's cleaned)

Everything in this life is an experience. Situations to learn from, both positive and negative. Life is a rollercoaster people... just enjoy the ride. (I've had way to much time to drown myself in thoughts lately)

"As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, woulda, shoulda, buckle up, and just keep going." --Carrie Bradshaw

The Inner Goddess

So since I've been back home, I've been trying to "find myself" again. Also, I have been attempting to tap into my inner goddess. I have been wearing more dresses and skirts, more jewelry, and a little more make up. I've been trying to care more about my appearance, the way girlie girls do. I've never been a girlie girl... in fact, I usually just throw on a pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and run a comb through my hair. It has been a fun difference to get dressed up more often. Of course, the crappy part is that my shoe options are now limited since my having to wear a heel lift due to my short leg syndrome. meh :( But at least I can still wear cute boots! The funny thing about this, is I am only doing it for myself. I have no interest in attracting someone to me... I just want to feel girlie and cute, for ME.

(it looks like I'm posing for this picture,
but really I was just putting on my necklace,
and Mom said Smile)

But I digress... In trying to find myself, I am also trying to figure out what exactly I want to do with my life. (Aren't we all?) I finally believe I have come to a decision, which irronically (or irritatingly) enough, is the first option I decided on back in high school.... I'm going to get my massage therapy license. I have always enjoyed giving people massages, and I also very much enjoy helping others feel good. I'm also entertaining the idea of continuing into Physical Therapy. I just really want a career (you know, since I HAVE to pick one) that helps people feel better. If I had enough motivation, I would probably also try becoming a personal trainer... But it's hard enough for me to drag my own ass to the gym, let alone other peoples'. I would be a nurse if I could, but let's face it, Crystal doesn't do so well with needles.... and by that I mean I am f*cking terrified of them!!! I also don't care much for cutting people open. ick! So massage therapy seems right up my alley!! --Plus, I might be able to find out more about spinal problems, and how to fix them myself!-- ha.

So anyways, just thought I would share that bit of knowledge that I have come up with. Now I am trying to decide if UCMT is a better choice then the Ogden Institute of Massage Therapy... I'm sure it is... but is it so much better that I should make the commute? If anyone has any suggestions or advice on this subject, PLEASE let me know!!

Oh and also, I still desperately need a job... --one in Ogden, not Salt Lake-- if anyone cares to help me out in that area as well, it would be greatly appreciated. (Go figure that the week I decide to go out of town, I miss the opportunity to be on TWO different commercials... now there's nothing! argh!)

Thanks y'all!

P.S. how great has this weather been lately!? Can we continue to postpone snow, like, forever? :P
P.P.S. I love my big fat fluff ball of a cat!

Thursday, November 26, 2009


So there was a Chiropractor who was advertising (if that's what you'd call it) at my Mom's store... you know, "Bad bed giving you back problems?" it makes sense. Anyways, so because of this my mom told me I had to come down and get a free screening with him since I'm always complaining about my back hurting. I thought, why not? So I went and he preformed some little tests with machine dealies, and it actually showed that my back had a lot more heat/strain on the right side then the left... he suggested I come in for a full screening, X-Rays and the whole nine yards. Since he more then cut the price in half, I agreed.

So on Tuesday this week I went and got my X-Rays, and the standard stretching tests, you know: "does this hurt? can you feel this? Does this feel different then this?" Then he said he wanted to wait for the X-Rays to get developed before he could do anything further, so I made an appointment for the next day. On Wednesday, I go in and he takes me into this little room... He has me sit down, and at this point I'm starting to get nervous because of how serious/sullen he is acting. He puts my X-Rays on the screen and says, "you know, I just thought this was going to be a standard screening, and you'd just need a few adjustments, but.... as it turns out.... you actually have Scoliosis." And I tell ya, if I hadn't seen my x-rays I might not believe him... however, I did see them, and they were bad! Scary even! My spine takes a dramatic curve to the right up at the top by my shoulders (where I'm always having pain). He says he doesn't understand how I made it through all of the checks that the schools perform... stupid teachers!

He says that my scoliosis could be the very reason that I have asthma! My spine curves right where the nerves are that control the immune system, AND thats most likely why I have asthma and allergies. Crazy!! Oh, it's also the reason I have such bad TMJ... and for those of you who have ever eaten with me, you know just how bad it is!

Also, turns out that my right leg is 14mm shorter than my left leg.... which could be the very reason my spine starting curving to begin with. On the x-rays for my hips, they totally did not line up, at all. So to correct this problem, I now have to wear a heel lift in my shoe.... which means, I gotta kiss the high heels goodbye for a while. meh :( The funny thing, is that the highest heel lift available is only 7mm ... I guess in the reality of it, 14mm is a HUGE deal when it comes to throwing off alignment of the spine.

SO, that's that... he said it's of course up to me in what I want to do about it... but if I let it go untreated, it is very possible that I will require back surgery when I'm older. *sigh* So to avoid that... I will be going to his treatments, just as soon as I get a job. He told me the best thing, would be to go in THREE TIMES A WEEK... for about 13'ish weeks. Of course, I must admit, after he twisted and cracked and popped me... I felt amazing!! It was like I was coming out of a cocoon! Of course, now today I'm all sore from it... but that was to be expected.

Therefore, for all of you who have heard me complaining about back problems, OR knee problems (because it's quite possibly the reason I have bad knees), now we all know why.

Oh and

This year I am thankful for my health, above all!!
and of course my mom....

and my friends....

and food....

and bjork....


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Jack is awesome!

I just wanted to dedicate a blog to my good friend Jack. (who claims he reads my blogs occasionally)
It was his birthday on Monday, and because of that I decided to take him to dinner! ...and then to breakfast.... and then another dinner. --Damn I'm nice!--

Well anyways, I just want to say how happy I am that he was birthed into this world... and also that I have had the opportunity to meet him and be his friend.

You are nothing short of amazing Jack! I luff you!!
"If we listen to each other's hearts,
we'll find we're never too far apart...
and MAYBE love is the reason why...
for the first time ever seein it, eye to eye.

Florida was AWESOME!!!

It was a wonderful 83-85 degrees the whole time, with not a cloud in the sky!!! The air was just humid enough that you could feel the difference, but not so overwhelming that you constantly feel wet. My hair and my skin have never felt softer, OR had such an incredible glow! We spent the majority of our time at the pool (shown above) or the beach (shown below), because in those weather conditions, it is just ridiculous to stay inside! My mom is now convinced she wants to move there, and I'm all for it!! Well, I'm all for HER moving there... as for me... I could maybe move there when I was older, but it was, as advertised, full of old people. So if I ever get the opportunity to retire... that's where I'll go to do it.

It's amazing how much of a difference elevation has on the body. When I got off the plane and walked into the Salt Lake City airport, I literally felt like I couldn't take a deep breathe. I also, almost instantly needed chapstick and lotion. Not to mention it was like 18 degrees when we landed. Ugh.
I definitely need to live by a beach, AND mountains... and around sea level where I can bike and don't have an asthma attack!!

Oh! And another thing about Florida.... they have "Panther Crossing" signs!!!! The same way we have "Deer Crossing" signs!!! It's awesome!!! I totally wanted a picture of one, but they are only on the big highways where I couldn't stop. But if any of you know of Jack's graphic novel... me getting a picture in front of that sign would be brilliant!!! Too bad.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Florida Sun...

Here I come!

Me and Mom are going to visit her friend in Florida this week. Our flight leaves tonight. I'm so excited to be getting out of this cold and into 80 degree weather!!! Hopefully I can bring back a tan!... (oh silly wishful thinking). So peace out Utah! Won't be seein you next week!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


There is some sort of feline creature roaming around in the woods behind my Mom's house... It is either the BIGGEST house cat I have EVER seen, or is it some sort of cougar that escaped the mountains and crossed over several highways to get here. I have NO clue what is is! But I can tell you, it looks like a lynx. Do we even have those in Utah? I know they can be found somewhere in North America... But here in Utah? I've tried to go outside to look at it, but honestly it's a bit intimidating. It appears as if it would come up to the height of my knee!! It's like brown with black spots... always looks like it's stalking some sort of prey... I'm sure this beast is who bit my cat on the foot this summer, the bastard. Here's a picture of a Lynx, and I tell ya, this is pretty much what this thing looks like. WTF?!

I would take a picture of the real thing.... but I don't have a camera except my phone, and it never stays still long enough for me to get a good one. But I must say I am facinated by this creature, and love when I actually catch it lurking around the back yard.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Dear Yogi Tea,

You are effing delicious!
Thank you for being so magnificent!


The number one rule in Zombieland:

If this is true, then according to my experience on the ellipical machine yesterday,
I would currently not survive a Zombie attack.
I plan on spending two hours, every day, in the gym...
for the rest of time.
(P.S. the movie Zombieland, was totally awesome!)

Thursday, November 5, 2009

10 Sad Sad Facts

  1. I've only been back in Ogden for two weeks now.... and I'm already ready to leave again. I mean, I love seeing my friends and being with my Mom, but Ogden is...well....Ogden. I feel like I'm 18 all over again; with the thought that if I'm going to live in Utah, I want to at least live in Salt Lake CITY. But really, I'm just ready for something new... again.
  2. I feel like I'm the only person my age NOT going to school. I know I probably should be... and yet I have NO desire to.
  3. I have attempted to start a cleanse about three times this week. Not eating is just too damn hard!! Dear Food: why do you have to taste so good?!?!
  4. The Gold's Gym in Ogden, is NOT affiliated with the Gold's Gym in Salt Lake. WTF?!? Therefore, when my membership automatically starts back up again in January.... I will not be able to go to the gym here. Again: WTF?!?!?!
  5. I could start work as a waitress tomorrow if I wanted too.... but for some reason I just DON'T want to do it. I love eating out, and working at a restaurant will spoil that for me. Plus people are so damn rude these days. SO I just continue to sit and collect unemployment, waiting for some sort of awesome job opportunity to just come knocking on my door. -sigh-
  6. I am so tainted on love and relationships right now, that even watching actors embrace each other on TV, irks me.
  7. I have never felt fatter in my life. It's doing horrible things to my self-esteem. I am so mad at myself for working so hard this spring to look good,(which WAS working) just to ruin it all this summer by drinking my weight in beer and whiskey and never working out. ugh!
  8. Just like when I lived here before, I hear voices and strange noises when I'm the only one home....this house is totally and completely haunted. Or I'm entering early stages of Dementia, which is not only possible, but likely.
  9. I find it very difficult to turn down the offer of a drink.... I'm pretty sure at this point you could call me a functioning alcoholic. :/

And the last and final sad, sad fact is:

10. I don't think anyone reads my blogs. So I'm bascially just venting to myself.

Monday, November 2, 2009



Half Angel, Half Devil
(seemed very appropriate after my year...)

Hey Ladies!
Oh how you rocked my world.
We are up to deviant things...
Pretty sure I was only partially coherent at this point in the night...
My favorite costume awards go to:
Kristen as Lady Gaga
Andrea as Judy Jettson
AND... even though she didn't grace me with her presence....
Christine as Bjork
You guys rock!!!