Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Finish line

I am at the home stretch... I've finally reached the end.
So bittersweet.
I only have two more finals and then I am DONE with school!!! I take my comprehensive exam on Jan 5th, and then my MBLEX on Jan 7th.
And also on Jan 7th... I graduate.


Monday, December 6, 2010


There is a lot of catching up I need to do on here. I really want to tell you about my Thanksgiving weekend, how it was packed with adventure, WONDERFUL family members, lots of food, bonfires, hot tubs, hiking, and love. It was one of my very best Thanksgivings ever. I love my Cuskelly family.

But I don't have the time to write about it now. I graduate in only three short weeks. THREE WEEKS!!! So I have too much going on to be blogging. However, I would like to share this fabulous music video with you that I think is fun and also very touching. Enjoy.

I love Katy Perry.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Eat Pray Love

"There is a wonderful old Italian joke
about a poor man
who goes to church every day
and prays before the statue of a great saint

'Dear saint, please please please... let me win the lottery!'

Finally the exacerbated statue comes to life
looks down at the man and says
'My son, please please please... buy a ticket!'

So now I get the joke...
and I've got three tickets."

--Eat Pray Love

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Farrah Fawcett

How's this for a costume?

Friday, October 22, 2010



-- written by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.


Read this.


Thursday, October 21, 2010

Time Is Now

It is the beginning of the end of the beginning...

This week I started my last term at MCU. It is such a bittersweet feeling, knowing that school is almost over. I am excited to be graduated and get my career started, but it is so sad to know that I won't be seeing my amazing classmates and wonderful teachers every day anymore.

With the end drawing near, the question that none of us can escape is calling at us from every corner; "What are you going to do now?"

We even had a class that forced us to answer this question. Our final was to give a presentation stating your devotion to massage and your plans for the immediate and not-so immediate future. I didn't prepare what I was going to say, as I wanted it to come from the heart. I conveyed to the class how massage has called to me for as long as I can remember; and from the time I walked in the doors of MCU and met Janet (the admissions angel), to the first time I put my hands on a body, to now... I have known I made the right choice. I have finally found my calling, my passion for this life.
However, it has been hard for me to make an exact plan for the future of my "business" as I am still on the journey of discovering where in this universe I was to actually plant my roots.

But what IS my plan?

Well here it is: there are still many classes I want to take at MCU. Therefore, the school is keeping me here in Utah for at least another year. I am also going to inquire about becoming a TA for one of the classes, as I think it would be a blast to do so. When my lease is up in March, I am most-likely moving into a new place with my best friend Jak. That way we can both save money for our move in 2012.

Yes that's right, in spring of 2012, Jak and I are moving to Hawaii (Kauai, specifically). I have already been looking into resort jobs there, and places where I can study traditional Hawiian massage, called Lomi Lomi.

From there, the world is my oyster. I desire to travel while I am still young and unattached. There is big world out there and I feel I must see more of it before I can decide where to settle down. Otherwise, I will always be curious.

Truth: We create our own future.

The future that I am creating for myself is a very positive one, full of possibilities that I may not even yet know exist. While I have a good idea of how I want my life to turn out, it isn’t set in stone. Therefore, if something doesn’t work out exactly like I dream it to, then I won’t be terribly disappointed. I know that I have control over my life, but I also know that life has a way of throwing challenges your way when you least expect them. I find that having goals and staying positively dedicated to those goals is the answer to life’s question: “how will I go on?” As long as you have goals you are aiming for, and you are staying positively focused on those goals, no matter what gets in your way, you will overcome and succeed. This is also why I find that being adaptable is important. It is important to be able to shift gears or change lanes in the journey of life, while staying headed in the same direction. A few quotes that I like to apply are:

Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans”


“One often meets his destiny on the path he takes to avoid it.”

It is crucial to plan for the future. But it is of equal importance to remember to live in the present moment. We have no idea what could happen tomorrow, so we must enjoy every second of every day that we are on this Earth. Having goals to focus on is a way to keep you pressing forward, but hopefully it also serves as a reminder to enjoy the journey towards your destination.

I am still young. I have only begun to see what this life has to offer me. I feel that when I really get out into the world, start meeting more people and discovering new cultures, new windows and doors that I never even dreamed of will open for me.

The one thing I am absolutely dedicated to is helping others. I love massage. I love that I have discovered something I love so much that I can take with me wherever I go; and that wherever I go, I can help those around me. That is so important to me.

I’m not concerned with making a bunch of money. I’m not even overly concerned about having a retirement plan (though I will plan for that regardless). I am mainly concerned with being surrounded by the beauty of the world, and the beauty of the people that inhabit this world, and the beauty that comes from an individual helping out another individual. And most importantly, Love. Love of one person to another, love of our planet, and love of oneself.


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Curtner Art

This man is an amazingly dedicated artist. I saw his artwork at the recent Arts Festival we had here. He cuts words out of magazines and creates pictures with them. The coolest part is the words are related to the image he creates. Genius. Must take so much time. I love them. It's the perfect combination of words and image.
Someday I will buy many copies of his art to put up around my place.

(I have a postcard sized image of this one in my bathroom)



Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Dear ______,

May you never lie, steal, or cheat.

But if you must lie,
Lie beside me.

If you must steal,
Steal my sorrows.

And if you must cheat,
Cheat death.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Intermission 2

I'm taking another intermission on blogging.
I rarely get on the internet these days since I don't have a job where I sit in front of a computer anymore.

So until I return, please enjoy this site instead:



Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Almost time for: Dexter Season 5!!!!

For your viewing pleasure:

You're Welcome.

Sunday, September 26

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Words and Attitudes

"Language is power in ways more literal than most people think. When we speak, we exercise the power of language to transform reality. Why don't more of us realize the connection between language and power?"
-Julia Penelope
Words have power.
Choose your words.
Choose to be positive.
Choose to be powerful.
Choose present tense.

"Everything can be taken from a man but one thing;
the last of the human freedoms-
To choose one's attitude
in any given set of circumstances...
To chose one's one way."
-Victor Frankl
"You will always make a difference...
The difference you make depends on where, and how,
you show up."
Have I mentioned how much I love my school?!?
I finally have the class I have always hoped for...
always asked for...
always wanted....
But never knew it actually existed.
The class that helps me through my choices in life,
with an uplifting encouraging hand.
I am so grateful.
It will be the most challenging,
in all of the very best ways.

Monday, August 16, 2010

My Cosmic Autumn Rebellion

"They tell us Autumn's a-comin'
And everything around us will die,
Only a fool believes that he is different
from the birds in the sky.
All those birds' go chasin'
Some better, sunny days
You can't hear them singin'
Cause they've all gone away."
-The Flaming Lips
There are massive amounts of trees/weeds/pollen,
that bloom/pollinate in August every year....
And they want me dead.
But I will prevail.
OH yes allergies...

None the less... I LOVE fall.
And I am so excited for the leaves to start changing colors!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Hand In My Pocket

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy,

I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working,
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby

I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet

'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

And what it all comes down to my friends...
Is that everything's just fine fine


This song came on the radio the other day...
And I realized just HOW MUCH I can relate to it,
right. now.

Love you Alanis.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Northern Lights

About this time last year I saw the Northern Lights for the first time. I was up in Montana, almost as far North as you can go before you're in Canada, therefore when I say that I saw the Northern lights... I mean I SAW the Northern Lights.

I stood outside of my cabin with friends and watch them for a good 30+ minutes. It was one of the most magical sights I've ever encountered. If I didn't know any better, I would have fully believed I was watched UFO's in the sky. (I can only imagine how much it freaked people out before they had scientists to figure that shit out.) The lights would appear in one area of the sky, bright and fierce, shooting straight down as if they were actually touching the Earth; then they would slowly move across the sky in waves and fade away, but not before another beam would magically appear. This was all happening over and over again, but almost never in the same pattern. There really is no way to describe it. And I really wish I had a camera nice enough to capture it.

I bring this up because I just read an article about the Northern Lights being visible tonight. I don't know if we will be able to see them from here, but I will certainly try.
Here is a link to the article (its short):

"The sun erupted on Sunday, spewing plasma..... When the remnants of the plasma reach our atmosphere, they move towards the magnetic poles and go bang, creating famous and bizarre lights at the poles."
[They go BANG!!! hahaha!]

Also, here is a video I found:

I am such a space nerd. I love this shit.

So if you are out and about tonight, make sure to look up at the sky and see if you can find a little something extra dancing in the stars. :)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Polarity Therapy

"In using Polarity Therapy we are working with balancing the human energy fields. As with all life (and for that matter all of existence), energy moves from the greatest subtlety and greatest power of the spiritual level down through the mental level and continues down to the physical level where it manifests in its most solid form. On the phyiscal level, where the effects of imbalances and distortions from levels above become most noticeable, it is necessary to work with the energy fields as they relate to the three gunas and the five elements.

The three gunas, Sattwas, Rajas, and Tamas, are the three aspects of all manifest creation and are found in various combinations in all things and in all activities. Rajas is the positive, expansive yang aspect of polarity energy movement; Tamas is the negative, contractive, yin aspect of polarity energy movement; and Sattwas is the neutral aspect from which all energy arises and moves. Without the three gunas, no polarity charges could arise, no energy cuold move, and life as we know it would not exist."

And that is only the beginning.

Learning Polarity is like learning a new language. Or even more intense... it's like learning a whole new way to look at the world. It's expansive, it's in depth,... it's too much to try and cram into ten weeks. In the words of my Polarity teacher:
"You can study Polarity your whole life and still not even grasp the surface of understanding it's depth."


I have a final on it tonight. . . please wish me lots and lots of luck.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Laundromat Boredom

So here I am at the laundromat.....again. I am here way to damn much these days, due to the fact that I use 6 pairs of sheets a week, and each of those need to be thoroughly washed and bleached after each use. PLUS I just had a cat that was goo'ing stuff out of her chest (surgery) so I had to layer the bathroom with lots and lots of towels. I do have homework I am supposed to be doing, but I just HAD to write down all the things I'm noticing around me/thinking.

1- There are a LOT of people here for a Friday night... I feel so bad for all of us who have to spend our Friday evenings doing laundry. Thank god I have plans after this or I'd feel really bad for myself.

2- There is a guy here who is whistling that new 'Airplanes' song by I-don't-care-who. He won't stop! He's whistling the chorus over and over and over and over again!!! If he doesn't stop soon I will surely have to drown him in a washing machine.

3- I am very thankful for the invention of headphones, laptops, ipods, and all other devices that help you drown out people like airplane-whistler over there.

4- There is a guy sitting in front of me who looks EXACTLY like Seal!!! I'm not kidding. I've heard someone else say that before, which makes me worry that this is a racist comment... but I assure you, it's not. Dude looks just like him. (heart Seal)

5- There are two people folding a mountain of matching blankets. (one being the whistler) Which makes me think, "ah... other people who probably have to come do this cause of their job... I wonder what all those matching blankets are for...? A nursing home perhaps."
Just then I hear, "yeah that Carma is a real bitch, must be a UCMT thing." HAHAHAHA! For those who don't know, that stands for Utah College of Massage Therapy. Which then tells me that they must work at a spa. Spa people are such gossipers.

6- There are cabbage patch sheets in the dryer in front of me... they are the EXACT SAME cabbage patch sheets I had on my bed when I was four. I wonder if this particular pair of sheets are from 1989 too. Ewwwww.

7- I can't find a sign ANYWHERE in this place that says 'Laundromat.' I was looking simply to double check the spelling. LaundrOmat, or LaundrAmat. I concluded O.

8- On my way here I passed a person in my building loading up his car to go camping.
And the green monster rears its ugly head again. *sigh*

9- When you put $20 in a coin machine... the loud crashing of the coins coming out can't help but make you think of Vegas. And then it makes you wish that you were actually IN VEGAS! And that you just won the jackpot! and that you could now buy that house boat you've always wanted, AND a house on the beach, AND hire someone to do your laundry so that you NEVER have to do it again!!!!
-whew- at least that's how it made me feel.

10- Tonight, me and my new pal Candice are going to watch a cartoon that I haven't seen since I was a child. It was one of my FAVORITES growing up. However, I'm pretty much the only person who's heard of it. Had to order it in and everything. It's called "Gay Purree" and it's about french cats that go to Paris. It's f*cking awesome and I am STOKED to watch it again AND to share it with a fellow cat lover.

And that's all for now.

Thanks for tuning into Laundromat Boredom,
With your host,
Crystal And

Monday, July 26, 2010


I finally got out this weekend and got my
MUCH needed dose of nature.

Thank you mother nature.
Thank you friends.

But NO thank you to the bird sized mosquitos that left moutain sized bites on my bodest. ugh!

"Rock Me Sexy Jesus"

Any movie that has a song with that title,
is just grand movie in my book.

"Hamlet 2"
Me and my friend Jak watched this movie last night and laughed our asses off!! It was very witty, clever, and original in it's storyline. I highly highly recommend it.

After that we watched "Wet Hot American Summer" which in my opinion is one of the most hilarious, and unfortunately underrated movie made in the last 20 years!! It is one of the funniest movies I've ever seen and almost no one has heard of it! Even I didn't hear of it till it had been out for a few years already.

So if you are one of those people who haven't seen this, go rent it!!!


So Good.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The Bomb

Here is (yet another) of my new favorite songs:

Makes me GIDDY with excitement!!
Let's freak out! Life's just a party!

Don't you?!?!

Learn from your past experiences / mistakes?!?
Everything may or may not happen for a reason. . .but one thing is for sure:
You are meant to learn a lesson (or 2) from every experience you have!

So please people, don't get caught up making the same mistakes over and over again. . . it's a vicious cycle that will certainly get the best of you.

Oh, and always remember to floss your teeth and balance your checkbook.

That is all.

Friday, July 9, 2010

To Modest Mouse:

Dear Modest Mouse,

Remember when you came and did a concert at the Mckay Events Center in Orem [Utah] in 2007, and you guys all dressed as sailors and decorated the stage like an old ship in reference to your latest CD release We Were Dead Before the Ship Even Sank. ?
Remember how not that many people showed up? And after your first or second song you said something along the lines of: "Wow. . . look how popular we are in Utah. . .we can't even fill up a gymnasium. . . . Oh, AND we're playing IN A GYMNASIUM!"

[Prepare for rant of excitement]
Then remember how you played that 10 minute compilation of a bunch of your most awesome songs all put together in one new PHENOMENAL song, and I thought I was going to explode with joy?!?!?! And remember how I 'illegally' jumped over the gates into the GA section so I could be closer to you and jam out to your awesomeness?!?! Remember how when I left I felt like a was floating and I was all buzzy with excitement as your words and your vibes echoed throughout my entire body and that feeling didn't leave me for days?!?!?!?! That concert totally rocked my world!!!

But I digress. . . Now remember last night when you came to Salt Lake and played for our annual Twilight Concert series? And about 40,000 people showed up making it a cluster-f*ck-jam-packed-claustrophobic-catastrophe of a concert containing WAAAAAAY too many douche-bag people, THUS making it so I could barely even hear your music over all the assholes who were talking the whole time cause they weren't really there for the music!??! And how people couldn't just chill the fuck out and STOP walking around and pushing through people and picking fights?!?!?!? *deep breathe*

Well, I hope that showed you guys that you ARE tremendously loved here in Utah. . . and more importantly that you are TOO cool to come play a FREE concert. Though I am SUPER happy that you came and I got to see you [sort of], next time would you please go back to charging money so that only the people who are there for the MUSIC show up?! Oh and please come back SOOOOON.
You guys are radical!!! Keep on rockin and I will keep on enjoyin! :)

MUCH Love,
~One of your very BIGGEST fans~

Thursday, July 8, 2010


For the last, 8 years or so, my favoritest FAVORITE band has been Modest Mouse. When I first heard them, I was so BLOWN AWAY that I literally had to lay down on the ground (next to the speaker) so that I could fully absorb the music. My mind was buzzing and dancing with excitement. Goosebumps covered my entire body, and my uncontrollable smile reached from ear to ear. They literally have a physical effect on me. More so then any other band. (2nd in line is Bran Van 3000) Still to this day they can alter my mood in magical ways.
I could listen to their albums on repeat for the rest of my life and probably never tire of them.
(Yes ALL of their albums)

I'm actually surprised I haven't blogged about them until now.... and I am doing so now because, as most of you already know, they are coming to concert tonight...for FREE!!!

• The 2010 Twilight Concert Series kicks off in its new temporary (or not) venue, Pioneer Park at 300 West and 300 South, Salt Lake City, with Modest Mouse (pictured) and opening act Avi Buffalo. Show starts at 7, with gates opening and the Twilight Market starting at 5. Free.



How they decided to do this I do not know. Normally the bands that come to our free Twilight concerts are bands that are not so popular. But these guys are. Like woah. Pioneer park is going to be JAM PACKED!!! And I couldn't possibly be more excited!!! I will be throwing elbows to make my way to the front. The only people allowed to stand by me tonight are people who know EVERY lyric to EVERY one of their songs! Like I do! :P That is all.



Thursday, July 1, 2010

The Dental Spa

Today I had the privilege (yes privilege) to go to the Dentist. Why would I refer to such an unpleasant thing as a privilege you ask? Well, it's because I discovered a little place called, The Dental Spa. The experience I had there was incredible and I would like to share it with you.

From the outside, the building doesn't look all that impressive. Just your average little office building complex. However, once you enter you see that the middle is open to trees and shrubbery and the offices surround the vegetated area in a circle. I find suite D and enter. I am immediately greeted by the receptionist with a warm smile and, "Hello! You must be Crystal. Welcome!" And I do, feel welcome. She grabs some paperwork and comes around from behind her desk to shake my hand. --woah, a physically greeting as well?...that's unique.--

She hands me the paperwork and says to follow her to the back. She leads me into the 'waiting room.' One of the walls is replaced with ceiling to floor windows, looking out to the center area I spoke of with the trees, making way for soft natural light to cascade in through the leaves, -very aesthetically pleasing. The other walls are lined with soft green curtains; and I'm in love already. There are candles going and soft lamps lighting the rest of the room, I look around and even notice a little Buddha statue on one of the tables. Now for the best part: the walls are lined with massage chairs. Yes, full blown awesome massage chairs.

She tells me to take a seat and fill out my paperwork. I can barely concentrate as the electrical 'thumbs' knead into my back. The music that was coming through the speakers was a jazzy/electronic con-tempo / casual type... something I would actually listen to with my own free will. I am totally relaxed and almost completely forget that I'm at the DENTIST. After about ten minutes she comes in to tell me they're ready for me. This is the first time EVER that I wanted my wait to be longer!

She takes my paperwork and my bag from me and says, "to begin, we will have to you put your hands in some paraffin wax." So I do, and if you've never had paraffin wax on your hands, well, it feels awesome! She then wraps my hands in saran wrap and puts warm gloves on each of them. She grabs my bag and leads me into the dentist chair. They have a computer in front of the chair with a scene of an island and the ocean. [One more thing to love.] Then she comes asks me if I would prefer a warm eye mask for relaxation, or a cold one for revitalization. I choose the cold one, 1-because I am always too warm anyways, and 2-because it helps with the bags under your eyes, which I totally have.
Before applying the face mask she takes some aromatherapy oil and rubs it on my temples for a few minutes, which only further increases my relaxation. Then she applies the cool face mask, and she precedes with the cleaning. She was very gentle and very apologetic when she noticed me twitch on parts where I am more sensitive and it gave me a zing. After the cleaning she removes the eye mask and sends in the Dentist.
The Dentist, Dr. Brown, is a total hottie. He appears to be in his early 30's, brown hair, gorgeous smile, and is wearing jeans. [???] At first I thought this strange, but realized that it actually gave me a comforted feeling, like I was just hanging out with a friend who wanted to clean my teeth. He was incredibly kind and also very complimentive of my teeth.

Side Note: I went to a Dentist in Roy last December for a cleaning and that Dentist told me I had two cavities that needed to be filled and that I should re-schedule another appointment with him. I never did.

I tell Dr. Brown of this past appointment and he grabs my X-Rays. He shows them to me and explains that he doesn't see anything that would suggest I have a cavity. He also checks my teeth one more time. He then explains that this is something he sees often. That other Dentists will tell their patients that they have cavities when they really don't, just to get the money from filling them. He explains how much he cares about his patients and that he would never do that. Nor would he tell me I didn't have cavities when I really did. [cause that's just stupid]

I fall more in love with this place.

He thanks me for coming in and says he is happy to have me as a new patient. He then sends in the dental assistant again. And here's the best part: She proceeds to give me a FACIAL AND NECK MASSAGE!!!! Who wouldn't want a face massage after holding their mouths open for ____ minutes?!?!? It was incredible. THEN she grabs a hot towel that has been spritzed with Eucalyptus and places it over my face. She takes my hand and removes the mitt, and instead of just pulling the saran wrap off, she proceeds to massage my hand as she removes the wax!!!

As she's walking me out I ask her how long they've been around and how it's possible no one knows of them. She tells me that they have been there for TEN years, and that they are the "best kept secret in Salt Lake." [true that!]
She also tells me that they are looking to re-locate to another building in Sugarhouse, and there they intend on having a massage therapist on staff so that people have the option to get a full body massage before or after their appointments, and tells me to give them a call when I graduate. (which is conveniently going to happen right before my next check up with them.)

I left feeling totally pampered and revitalized, and found myself wishing I didn't have to wait six months for my next appointment.

Tremendous KUDOS to The Dental Spa for turning what is usually a terribly unpleasant experience into the total opposite. You guys rock!
Call and make your appointment today!

The Sugarhouse Dental Spa
2036 S. 1300 E. #D
Salt Lake City, UT
(801) 466-6645

(Keep in mind they are generally booked out, so call a few months in advance.)

P.S. The other major added bonus: They accept my insurance (Select Health), so my visit was 100% completely free to me.


Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Gentltemen Broncos

If you think Napolean Dynamite is funny... You can NOT miss this movie!!!


Day Man

In case you need a laugh today....

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Misson/Goal Statement

As an assignment for school I had to write a Mission Statement and a Goal Statement for my future career choice.
When we got the assignment, the writer in me climbed up on her high horse and said, "Oh this will be the EASIEST assignment EVER!" However, I have found that to be quite the contrary. I suppose it's because this really makes you think. I mean, it's so personal, putting on paper the desires that you often just fantasize about in your head.
Also made it tricky that it had to be career oriented, and that I couldn't add things to the list like "marry a millionaire." (even though we all know that's what's going to happen to me. right mom?)

Anyways, I think I have finally gotten them done. Course, knowing me and how much I revise my writings, they could still change. But for fun, I decided to post them here on my blog for y'all to read. Feedback is encouraged.
Mission Statement:

My mission as a licensed massage therapist, is to provide therapeutic massage and bodywork for the enhancement of the health and well-being of my clients. I will provide a relaxing, compassionate, and stress-reducing massage to revitalize their most precious resources for physical, mental, and emotional health. I will provide a safe, calming, and professional environment where they can come and release tensions, relieve pain, and rejuvenate their bodies. My continuing education schedule is the assurance of increased training to offer greater value and new services and techniques to my clients.

Goal Statement:

First and foremost my goal is to pass the comprehensive exam and graduate Myotherapy College. I intend to use my massage therapy license to insist me in my quest to see the world and help fuel my love for traveling. When I decide on a place where I want to settle down, my goal is to find a workplace that suits all my atmospheric requirements to enhance my excellence as massage therapist. I intend to expand long term, client-focused relationships; and to continually improve my techniques and products through involvement in associations and through communications with clients and peers. My overall goal is to achieve a life of peace and serenity working to benefit the health and well-being of the people around me.

Friday, June 18, 2010

MA BIRFFFFDAY Weeeekend!!!

It's almost my birthday.... it's almost my birthday.... it's almost my birthday!!!!!
My FAVORITE holiday of the year!!! (am I selfish or what?!?)
It's the one day of the year where I can do anything I want and I can use my day of birth as an excuse.
It's not even my actual day of birth that I am excited about.... it's the party the night before! I over invited, because, well you know, generally only half the people you invite actually show up. However... it's lookin like it's going to be a full load.
Even better! More people to shake my booty with!

You know, this is the first time in SIX years that I have been home for my birthday! Can you believe it!? For fun, let's go over a list of things I've done for my birthday:

19th: --how sad is this... I can't remember what I did for my 19th birthday... hmmm.. damn memory loss.-- Instead I'll fill this space by mentioning my 15th birthday, in which my mom took me on the Mexican Riviera cruise, where they showed Titanic on the boat (wtf?!) and I got my first kiss! :)

20th: Road trip to Vegas with Mike, Kaitlin, and way to strong 'special' brownies. Getting lost in Caeser's palace. Fear and Loathing. Hilarity ensued.

21st: BEST TRIP OF MY LIFE! Just me and Ariele in her white Honda Civic, started in Vegas for the big 2-1, then off to LA, San Fran, Eureka, Portland, Seattle, and Vancouver Canada where Ariele got put on the cover of a magazine. Once again, BEST TRIP EVER!!!!

22nd: Went to Southern Utah and hiked down the biggest face-cliff I've ever hiked into Sundance Canyon (I can't actually remember the name of the canyon and that might be a made up name) where we camped for 3 days, spending one of them on the Colorado river. It was the end of June in the desert and it was 107 degrees. Needless to say, heat-stroke ensued; followed by a massive feeling of accomplishment.

23rd: Took a road trip over to Oregon to see Crater Lake National Park. Drove along the coast of Oregon and camped in the Redwoods. Gorgeous.

24th: I was working up at good ole St. Mary's Resort in Montana, and all my new friends threw a Bonfire/Kegger party for me. Unfortunately the Keg tipped over on the way to the fire pit, so we were really drinking mostly foam and flat beer. But at 6,000 feet elevation, it didn't matter, it got the job done. :)

(Damn, I'm good to myself on my birthday!)

And now we're up to speed. While all those trips were INCREDIBLY fun... I'm actually excited to be home where I can see all of my friends! So hopefully you're coming tomorrow night... I can't wait to boogie down!!!!

UPDATE 7/12/10:

I remembered my missing birthday!!! I went camping up at Lava Hot Springs!! Me, Kaitlin, Greg, and Rob. Rob took his brothers ID and got us a bottle of Jager, we got back to the campsite and starting setting things up when all of a sudden, CRAAAASSSSHHH!!! Someone knocked over the bottle and it shattered. Sweet sweet Jager poured out everywhere. It was the saddest thing ever. Fortuantely we had more liquor AND the whole campsite to ourselves.
(THANK YOU diary!)

Monday, June 14, 2010


I danced my ass off to this song (and many more) this weekend.
I may or may not have had an audience...

Sexiest song ever.

My weekend...

...Was full of surreal moments. Moments where you can't even believe that what is happening really is, but it's so wonderful you don't even dare question it. I had such a good time, while really not doing much at all. I could go on and on and on about the events that took place in that short 72 hour time span. I could dive into an endless rambling of the fun/funny/kinky/crazy things that I did.......but I won't. Cause I can't. Cause my weekend, was a big... fat... juicy... secret.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


Song & music video I'm now madly in love with...
brings an enormous smile to my face!

(I've tried to fix this a few times... i don't know why it's off center... to fully enjoy the video, click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4306i99LMXo )

Thursday, June 3, 2010

It's JUNE!!!

Wow... I cannot believe that it's already JUNE!!! The BEST month of the year!!! (my birthday month) I also can't believe I am already in my third term of school!!! This year has just FLOWN by!!!

I got my grades for last term... and not to toot my own horn or anything, but I have to boast... I got a 3.9!!! And the only reason is because I missed two days of one class, so they had to give me an A-. So what?! I am ecstatic!!! I know to some of you "do-gooders" and "over-achievers" out there who always have to get a 4.0 might not think this is all that great... But for a B average student, this is just AWESOME!! It's totally hanging on my fridge right now.

Among my classes this term I am taking Pathology and Nutrition. So if I actually find the time to blog... expect to be seeing blogs about illness, diseases, enzymes, vitamins, diets, etc. I'm really excited for this term, even if I have to write 3-4 papers. (I actually like writing papers)

I don't have much time to add anything else so I'm just gonna throw in a few random thoughts:
  • I went and saw Sex and the City 2 last week....and it was, of course, AMAZING. BUT afterwards I got to thinkin that maybe that show gives girls unrealistic expectations of girlfriends. Do any girls ACTUALLY have this kind of little clique?! And if so, where is mine??
  • Having a guy as a 'best friend' lately, has been pretty damn awesome. And I am so very grateful for him and everything he does for me. THANK YOU GEOFF!!!
  • I have also been so very grateful for my friend Zrinka. She has been my saving grace lately. AND I love that she is a space nerd just like me!! EVERYONE should go to the Clark Planetarium and see "The Ultimate Universe"... it's MIND blowing!
  • Sometimes I feel like there is so much beauty in this world I don't have the capacity to take it all in. Also, sometimes I feel like this world is so detailed and intrique that if I really try to comprehend it, my mind will literally implode.
  • In school we have to write a Mission Statement and and a list of Goals. I asked if I could put 'find a sugar daddy' as a goal...but apparently that needs to go on my 'dream list.'
  • This weekend I have the chance to cross something off my "things I want to do someday" list. And I can't stop smiling about it. :D

God, life is crazy isn't it?!? Hope everyone is feeling as radiant and joyful as they possibly can!!


R.I.P. Rue McClanahan

Rue McClanahan, the Emmy-winning actress who brought the sexually liberated Southern belle Blanche Devereaux to life on the hit TV series "The Golden Girls," died this morning. :(
(for more info: http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/37490180/ns/today-entertainment/ )

I don't think I need to reiterate my intense LOVE for the Golden Girls, BUT I would like to share this quote by Rue that I read on msnbc.com:

"Golden Girls" aimed to show "that when people mature, they add layers," she told The New York Times in 1985. "They don't turn into other creatures. The truth is we all still have our child, our adolescent, and your young woman living in us."

I don't care who are, or how old you are, The Golden Girls is pure comical GENIUS! I often get crap for liking it... but only from people who have never given it a chance. I have sat people down and forced them to watch it, and they always inevitably say, "okay you're right...it IS funny."

So go watch The Golden Girls in memory of all these
wonderful, amazing, talented, and charming women.


Thursday, May 27, 2010

Modern World

A friend just showed me this video.
Watch it. Listen to the words. Enjoy

Anouk - Modern World

^^Click it.^^
(I couldn't embed it)

Loves it.


Sitting at a coffee shop next to a guy that looks like he's planning a trip around the world... how do I casually strike up conversation and ask him if I can go without sounding desperate and crazy???

SO here I am on my spring break..... on the computer. wha?? Seriously though, it has been SOOOO nice to have the days all to myself, to fill them up however I like. While it does suck that I couldn't afford to go anywhere, and also that no-one else had time off at the same I did (jerks); it has really been nice to catch up on things I've been wanting to do. Like make a new playlist on my IPOD. YEAH...that's how exciting I am.

And by the way, I did pass all my finals!! YESSS!! When I go back to school next week I start Clinic! EEK. I'm nervous. But it'll be good, I'm confident. SO from now on if you want a massage come to Myotherapy College on Saturday afternoons from 1-4 pm. Ask for Crystal. :) $25

Let's see, what else....I finally got brave and took the frontrunner to Ogden this week to visit my Mom for her birthday. It was actually pretty fun. Nice smooth ride, and only took about 45 minutes. Not bad at all! I highly recommend it to anyone who travels north for any reason.

Side note: I need more friends with bikes.

Well I just wanted to update this thing since I haven't had much time recently. But really I don't have anything exciting to report. SO peace out.

Come! Let us gingerly touch our swords!!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Monday, May 17, 2010


Okay boys and girls.... FINALS week is finally here! I can't believe I have already made it through my 2nd term AND 110 muscles!!! AHH!! I've gotten to the point where whenever I watch someone move, especially dance, I sit and visualize the exact muscles that they are using and the kinesiology terms of the movements their doing. I've been studying my butt off, and I'm actually not totally terrified of my final.. which that in itself sorta frightens me. hmmm..

Well, needless to say, my life will continue to be pretty intensely consumed with muscle-study until after Wednesday. Then.....


I am prepared to play.......hard! So everyone who wants to play with me please call me after this week! (and get ur mind outta the gutter!)
It'll be my one and only week free of school this year! :D

Hikes and Bike rides all around! Yippee!

P.S. There are some pretty fun pictures that come up with you google image search "spring break." I'm sure you can imagine....

Friday, May 14, 2010

Please take me...

I NEED to be submerged in nature ASAP!

Too much sound,
not enough silence.
Too many walls,
not enough trees.
Too many ceilings,
not enough sky.
Too much carpet,
not enough sand.
Too much concrete,
not enough earth.
Please take me away from "life."
(at least for a little while)
My spring break is coming up in about a week....
I have work AND school off!!!
Who wants to go down South?!?!?!?!



Betty White is all the hype right now. And you know what?! She should be! In fact she should always be the hype. As you should know, she reluctantly hosted Saturday Night Live last week, (they've been trying to get her to host for YEARS but she's never wanted to) and if you were unfortunate enough to miss it...Well, you best be HULU'n that shit ASAP! Pure brilliance.

Now, I don't want to get all elementary and "I liked her first!" on ya... HOWever, it's totally true. I've loved Betty White since as far back as I remember. I can say with confidence that I have seen EVERY SINGLE episode of the Golden Girls at least ten times.
It is my all time favorite show of all time. ALL TIME!

The season DVD's are ALL I've asked for for my birthday for years... why I haven't bought them for myself is beyond me. (probably cause they ain't cheap)

Betty White is the only famous person that I've met that had me TOTALLY star struck!! All I could do was shake her hand all wide eyed and smilely. It took all of my power not to start rambling about how much I love her. She's just the sweetest thing ever! Plus she's a total hottie, and hysterical to boot!!

So I just wanted to pay a tribute to my favoritest of ladies!
Betty White, you are a GOLDEN GODDESS that deserves all the admiration in the world!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


When Titanic came out, I was 13. I saw it in theatres about 3 or 4 times. I bawled my eyes out every time. However, I was watching the movie as an innocent teen watching a love story. I cried for the couple that didn't get to continue living and loving each other.

On Sunday evening, Titanic came on TV... So mom and I watched it. It's the first time I've seen it probably since I was 14 or 15 (so about ten years). This time as I watched, I watched it as a historical documentation of something that ACTUALLY happened. I cried this time, but not for Jack, and not for Rose, not for the ficticious love story... but for the 1,500+ people that lost their lives that night. I cried for the unimaginable TERROR that they had to go through in the time that their trusty ship sank out from under them. I cried for the people who got LOCKED in the bottom of the ship, with no hope to even TRY and survive. I cried for the people who were left stranded in the ice cold water to die. I cried for the SIX people who were saved by the ONE boat that came back. I cried for all the people on land who lost a loved one to the ocean that night.

What a tragedy. It has seriously traumatized me. I really can't even fathom the fear that would be pulsing through your veins as all of this happened around you, and knowing that there really is nothing you can do but face the inevitable outcome.

I also can't imagine living through that... that would haunt me for the rest of my life.
I can't stop thinking about it. Therefore, my thoughts go out to all the people who had to go through such a horrific experience.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Momma Bickie Day

Momma Bickie and daughter Tistol

I seriously have the best, most wonderful, most fantastic, most fabulous, most AMAZING Mom on the planet!!!!
I know everyone says that, and you know, they should! You're mom is THE reason you are even on this planet!!! (well I guess your Dad helped too)

I was going to write a poem for her here, but you know, there really are not words to express the gratitude I have for my Mom and everything she has done for me.
Mom, I love you so much it's terrifying!!!

Thank you for being YOU!! and thank you for having ME!!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010


It's finally time for the much anticipated weekend trip to my friend Tony's cabin. It's basically going to be a reunion of high school friends, with some new friends thrown in. Shortly put, it's going to be AWE-SOME!!!

Hopefully it doesn't end up like the movie "Cabin Fever."
(which is a great horror movie, by the way)
To be safe I better take some bottled water and stick to mostly beer. If we do end up dying up there, and they make a movie about it... I insist that Miley Cyrus play me. .....I kid, I kid!...
I would best be played by Jena Malone. ;)


Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

'I like giants'

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road, turn out the lights, get out and look up at the sky
And I do this to remind me that I'm really, really tiny
In the grand scheme of things and sometimes this terrifies me

But it's only really scary cause it makes me feel serene
In a way I never thought I'd be because I've never been
So grounded, and so humbled, and so one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

Rock and roll is fun but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky
Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye

When I saw Geneviève I really liked it when she said
What she said about the giant and the lemmings on the cliff
She said 'I like giants
Especially girl giants
Cause all girls feel too big sometimes
Regardless of their size'

When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the side
Of the road and run and jump into the ocean in my clothes
And I'm smaller than a poppyseed inside a great big bowl
And the ocean is a giant that can swallow me whole

So I swim for all salvation and I swim to save my soul
But my soul is just a whisper trapped inside a tornado
So I flip to my back and I float and I sing
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything
I am grounded, I am humbled, I am one with everything

So I talked to Geneviève and almost cried when she said
That the giant on the cliff wished that she was dead
And the lemmings on the cliff wished that they were dead
So the giant told the lemmings why they ought to live instead

When she thought up all those reasons that they ought to live instead
It made her reconsider all the sad thoughts in her head
So thank you Geneviève, cause you take what is in your head
And you make things that are so beautiful and share them with your friends

We all become important when we realize our goal
Should be to figure out our role within the context of the whole
And yeah, rock and roll is fun, but if you ever hear someone
Say you are huge, look at the moon, look at the stars, look at the sun
Look at the ocean and the desert and the mountains and the sky

Say I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
I am just a speck of dust inside a giant's eye
And I don't wanna make her cry
Cause I like giants

~by: Kimya Dawson